Saturday, November 18, 2017

More Thoughts...





we finally met... in person... face to face...

i honestly wasn’t even sure it was gonna be worth my while to hop on a plane on considerably short notice and make a trip just to meet up... but there was this little voice in my head that kept telling me that i should...to just take a chance... and find out if the chance was worth taking...

when it came time for us to meet up... i remember the moment he texted me "turn around"... and when i did... i saw him for the first time... this vision of surprisingly tall...not as dark as i though he would be... and almost handsome :-P 

he was nice to me... a gentleman in most ways... and he couldn’t stop complimenting me...

(and you know how i am with compliments...it takes at least 2 working days to process them)

what jilted me a little was when kept staring at me ... for long seconds at a time what felt like eternity...talking about my eyes and how amazingly beautiful they were... until he mentioned ...

“it’s like Aladdin”... looking into princess jasmine’s eyes for the first time like...


i mean... c’mon... as corny as that was...i just didn't believe that... though it was nice for someone to reference a Disney movie... let alone... be indirectly referenced as the Disney princess.... ?  hihihihihihihihiih 

who am i kidding... i LOVE!!!  being referred to as a Disney princess.... it’s every little girl’s dream... well my dream has a little more kinky complexity to it but... that’s another blog post altogether...

anyways...

some things did happen...

some things almost happened...

and some things didn’t happen...

it was a smorgasbord of emotions for me... i was careful ... maybe a little too careful.. with all that i’ve been through in similar situations like these in the past... who could blame me?

after all was said and done... i was coming out from this trip with more thoughts on my mind...

i honestly don’t know what can come to fruition from here on...  no plans set in stone... just an imaginary future from my part mostly... it would be amazing if we were both living much closer to each other...but that’s just wishful thinking at its best i suppose...

if he really was living closer to me...  my personal life would definitely take a drastic turn for the better... and perhaps my love life could actually even start to exist... 

i don’t really believe that THAT could happen... because i just don’t think i can even BELIEVE it...

or maybe... i just won’t LET myself believe it... for some weird reason...  i wonder why ?

but what i have taken from this experience is a sense of renewed hope... it was gone for quite a while... i kinda killed it with my own bare hands... but with him... it seems to be back ... faintly... 

but it’s there...

i can feel it...

if i can just make myself believe that i can be happy... one day...

(lifting up my glass of rose’)... cheers to wishful thinking...

5 comments:

OSAMA said...

Dear sexy hot beautiful dreamy guy, it's just the beginning, maybe to you it's just an imaginary future and a flickering flame of hope, but to me I have more hope than you think and ive already set plans and working on it, nothing art in stone but plans in motion, and your eyes are Dreamy that's why I lingered in my gazes, I couldn't believe that I saw that angel that for the last few years seemed to be an impossiblity, I remain Now and forever more your faithful and loving devote, your Friendly Neighborhood terrorist

N!LoC said...

:-p

fantus said...

WOW!!! This is very awesome!!! Your heart is still engaged in this life!!

N!LoC said...

We shall see :-)

smartwritingservice.com legit said...

I like Disney movies which are really nice. Every girl dreamed like Disney princess and they have more thoughts on their price. Most of the Disney films are most emotional.

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