Saturday, August 12, 2017

Never Had A Boyfriend...



i once heard this saying... “to write well... you have to write what you know”...

this is what i know...

i’m 32 years old and i have never had a boyfriend...

a hopeless romantic to the core... most of my childhood years were spent dreaming about the things i would get to experience with a guy... 

high school was pretty much the same ... if not more magnified...

then at one point in 2010... it seemed my luck was about to change... a guy suddenly walked up to me and started a conversation and it turned out he was very upfront about being gay and wanted to be friends...... and it was one of those moments where u think (is this really happening ??)... 

but turned out to be just a game and i was just an easy target for him to play with...(thank god i have fully recovered from it)...

shortly after that incident... i met a guy online... which ended up being a 3 year, long-distance relationship which as embarrassing as it sounds... i actually called him my “boyfriend”... but as i see it now... a “boyfriend” could never be just some guy u like over the skype screen or facebook chat...

it would be hard to explain all the ups and downs i went through with him that ultimately ended with him un-friending me on facebook... but what i learned and how i learned it only makes me a wiser person today...

as the years passed by... i was finding myself... and that guys in life as we know it is just one big pile of JERK!...

the guys who take one look at you and turn the other way...

the guys who seem all that into you up until they get what they came for then disappear into thin air...

the guys who really are the perfect one’s for you but they don’t ever see that...

and that one guy who seems so perfectly beautiful in every way...so beautiful through your eyes that makes u still believe in love at first sight...

after one bad experience after the next... i still live my life without any regrets... because i am my own teacher on this path of self discovery...

and i have discovered that i may be one of the few boys in this world who will perhaps live his entire life as someone who has...

never had a boyfriend...

7 comments:

fantus said...

I feel you!!!

N!LoC said...

:-/

Anonymous said...

I've had a very similar experience

N!LoC said...

:-/

Mark Evans-Leigh said...

HI there. I just wanted to send a message to let you know that I have nominated you and your blog for a Blogger Recognition Award. Please check out the post and follow the instructions at the bottom. I am really enjoying your blog and I’m following your blog. I look forward to seeing more!

http://nowthatsjustgay.blogspot.co.uk/2017/08/bloggers-recognition-award.html

N!LoC said...

Thank u so very much :-)

buy an essay paper said...

Yes, if you do not know what you are writing then we cannot present the idea clearly. This is a very interesting read. It has some inspirational information that would be helpful to writers.

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