Sunday, December 4, 2016

The Whole Truth...



as i suddenly recall my very first date with a guy... at the tender age of sweet 16... (him 24)... as we went to watch Halloween: resurrection...  (yes... i just back dated myself and you can do the math and roughly sum up my present age as of this published blog post...)

the one thing i remember vaguely was that during the movie ... at one point he actually tried to slide his hand up my thigh... (but never made it past my knee)... i honestly didn’t know what was going on or what he was trying to do... i was just dumb ole innocent virginal naive me... thinking he probably didn't like using the arm rests on the chair...

fast forward to a similarly bogus experience last christmas as depicted in this blog post...

and top that off with the first and only date of 2016.. (which could very well be my last for now...) also depicted here in this blog post...

**yes... i went on what seemed like the almost perfect date...up untill "when i declined... his true colors showed"... yes.. people... yes.... he just wanted xxx... that's why he was so nice to me the entire time... "and the oscar goes to".....(roll my eyes....)

i can’t help but wonder...

am i just gonna be screwed for life ?  i mean ... how many toads do i have to kiss ? or more practically ... how many jerks do i have to meet ? to finally find a decent , sane guy who is ... (for a lack of a better word...)..... n i c e .... ?

i have gotten the hang of this whole... “im fine being alone and single for life” mentality... but deep down... i just can’t escape the raw emotional feeling of my burning yearning  little boy soul telling me that...

U really need a boyfriend in your life to be happy... and without one... U will never ever truly feel complete...

and there’s no fighting that feeling... because i know that is the WHOLE truth and nothing but the TRUTH...


3 comments:

fantus said...

hmmmmmm:(

Anonymous said...

Life is unfair. What you give isn't what you gonna get back. :)

N!LoC said...

:-)

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