Sunday, April 29, 2012

Blind...


maybe it wasn't meant to be...

fate was never kind to me anyway...but 7 years later... you still manage to cross my mind
listening to your song...so many "what if" questions consumed me for the first few years since you left.. but now i feel like like i owe it to myself to "f**k you and Forget You" (sang like cee lo )

although.. we would have been such a cute looking couple together...

but then again... "what if " you weren't gay?


(just some random mumbling about a guy i used to have a "love at first sight" crush on... back in the day)



Blind ~ Lifehouse

Monday, April 23, 2012

Try Love Instead...



Paris Hilton ~ Celebutant

it's a sad thing that some boys decide to commit suicide...

nobody really cared until it was just too late...

i wish there was something that we all could do...

maybe try L0vE ? ...instead of H8 ?

 ~ N!LoC ~

Thursday, April 19, 2012

I Like Kink...


master + slave = beautiful pleasures

everyone has their own definitions of what being "kinky" is...

i always have to figure out what the fine lines are between hardcore extremes and soft core fun and games...

there are alot of things about s&m, fetishes and bondage on different levels that i find intriguing... i want to take a man to places he's never been before... and i want to push his boundaries and keep him right at the edge...

a simple thing like tying him down on a bed "spread eagled"...

putting on a blindfold...

and then ...

(just use your imagination)...

i find pleasure in pleasuring a man... it's the perfect scenario for me...his body helplessly layed there... all mine to seduce...i would have absolute control of the situation...and that is just the basic end of the kinky spectrum for me...

for instance....tickling is another little thing that i find erotic...

the "master" in me yearns for a man to submit his body to physical torture (in the playful form of tickling)... technically it is "torture"... but how can that be considered a bad thing when a man endlessly pleads for me to stop torturing him with laughter???

there are extremes like fisting, golden showers, mummification, breath play..(and i could go on and on about this...)...i am not so into those ...but that doesn't mean i am not "open" to it...

if someone can appreciate my desire for tickle torture... then i sure hell can find a way to appreciate something like "sexual defecation"...(just an extreme example... hi hi)

having different kinky desires.. no matter how (acceptable and mainstream) or (unorthodox and dark) they may be... it's all part of my acquired taste for sexual satisfaction... so i will start by saying...

"my name is N!LoC... and i am a kinkaholic"

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Snap...


this is why i love "guys"


looking so casual and boyish and sexy in so many ways....

i admire guys who look good wearing a cap..

i wish i looked remotely decent in a cap...

then again... i wish i looked remotely casually sexy in a grey cotton tank top...

(sigh)....

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Astray...




when i was younger...
i used to wonder...
about this crazy little thing called love...

i imagined it was "magical"...
a feeling so wonderful...
like being saved from the heavens above...

but just like a crucible...
i find love unattainable...
so i slowly melt the magical feelings away...

i've become disillusioned...
so i've come to a conclusion...
the one i gave my heart to...led me astray...

~N!LoC~


Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Since I Met You...


Andrea Bowen ~ Desperate Housewives



i never really bothered about the fight for equality...

why people discriminate over who could marry who...

i never really understood why it was such a big deal...

but it all makes sense now... since i met you...

 ~ N!LoC ~


Sunday, April 8, 2012

Take A Bow...


the MADONNA version of that song... not RIHANNA'S oh NA NA ba NA NA version.

this song brings back alot of memories... not too long ago..i had this song on repeat on my ipod.. and it was the "theme song" for that moment in my life... i'm not trying to get too deep into things... i definitely wasn't in love with "him".... "he" was a PLAYER....and he played me good...

but the line in that song
"you took my love** for granted why.. oh why?..the show is over say goodbye"
hits a home run... close to my heart.
"you deserve an award for the role that you play"
and i gotta hand it to him.. he really deserves an oscar nomination....one of my fav songs of all time..now it's forever tainted



Take A Bow ~ Madonna

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Tall Dark And Handsome...


Enrique Murciano (miss congeniality 2)


i always say .. "i love guys" in general..."ALL" guys... but if i had to choose and be picky about things... i'd have to say i love "tall dark and handsome" guys... 

and these are a few examples of the type of guys i see on TV that never fail to make my heart beat just a little faster every time i see them...

i consciously chose pics of them not being SHIRTLESS or in TANK TOPS because i think even with their clothes on.. they still manage to make my knees tremble...(sigh)...

they range from young adorable twinkies... to sexy studs that are just too good to be true...

to the epitome of "tall dark and handsome" ... to the type of guys i actually see myself marrying...   

f.y.i.... i actually wanted to put a pic of steve martin but i think he belongs in the "dinosaurs" category of type of older men i like.... (no offense to fellow dinosaurs reading this...giggle giggle)

and how ironic that my own boifriend doesn't even come remotely close to being "my type".... but it's funny.... somehow when you least expect it...getting to know a person for who they are on the inside...you just throw away all the checklists and preferences for physical traits...

and you find yourself being physically attracted to the person anyway...

(but with that being said....)

 i still love me some TALL DARK AND HANDSOME!!!  hihihi....


Jason Biggs (american pie) ~ Brent Harrison (reaper)

Ian Somerhalder (lost) ~ Chris Evans (captain america)
Novak Djokovic (tennis player) ~ James Lafferty (one tree hill)
Dean Cain (louis & clark) ~ Brendan Fraser (the mummy)
Jeff Probst (survivor) ~ Ralph fiennes (maid in manhattan)


Monday, April 2, 2012

Snap...




i was feeling bored..

he was just waiting around...

so....

snap snap snap baby !!!

(f.y.i... he looks much more hunkier in person... these snaps doesn't do him any justice)


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