Sunday, December 31, 2017

I've Lost The Music...



2017...

if i could sum it up for you... it would have to be... “the year of weddings”...

this was such an unprecedented thing for me... to have never  been to any real grand hotel wedding ever  ... to attending SEVEN weddings in one year... almost half of them at five star hotels...

i don’t know if i would ever have another year filled with so many weddings again.. but it got me thinking... about how i have a time where i have never experienced something before to experiencing it all out at a moment in time...

my first wedding i attended as an adult was this one... and i got really emotional then because it made me think about all the things i wanted but couldn’t have.. and maybe ive been to one too many weddings this year so that’s why i aint phased by them anymore.. either that... or i’m afraid to come to a safe calculated assumption that maybe... i just don’t believe it will happen for me...

and im not even talking about having a wedding.. i  mean “ yay for Australia !” for being the closest neighbouring country to legalise gay marriage and all... but i mean... i really think i am naturally accepting the fact that i may and will be without a man in my life... and i’m fine with that... i am okay... surprisingly i have learnt to just live life without the hopes of finding that special guy who like even “likes” me and all...

if i could see the writings on the wall.. it would show... me... being uninspired by music anymore... songs just don’t move me like they used to... and music was such a big part of my life... i mean it's still there... but i just don’t feel it... i don’t get excited by it... you can say i’ve lost my passion for it...

again... I’m fine with that... perhaps its just all part of going through the stages of life... and the feeling i get going into 2018... is ... “nothing”...

no new year resolutions... no bucket list to tick off... (although it would still be great to see celine dion live in concert in this lifetime)... but i ain’t crossing my fingers for that to happen.. just like how i ain’t wishing and hoping to have a boyfriend anymore... 

it will be so much easier that way i suppose... just get through this life... enjoy the journey... take one day at a time... be cool calm and collected if the worse is yet to come... but whatever.. i aint gonna fret about that... no expectations... and certainly no hopes and dreams...

so here is to 2018....  as i will be spending my new year’s eve working out in an empty gym... while it rains outside...

:-(

Saturday, December 23, 2017

Going Viral...



my secret is out...

now the entire company  where i work knows....

that i....

can shake my J.LO ASS like BEYONCE!

just how did this come to be you may ask??? well.. it was a mixture of a few things i guess...

i was one of the organising committee of our company’s annual Christmas party ... and i knew in advance that there was gonna be a best dressed competition that night. and i kinda wanted to try win it... i figured.. that since i always look frumpy wearing the same type of chequered shirt and jeans to work... this would be an easy cat in the bag for me if i just wore something "different" for a change... 

the theme of the night was red and black Christmas...

so believe it or not... i wore my SLIM FIT black dress shirt with embroidery sticthing on the front... and bought a pair of SKINNY FIT maroon coloured pants... (yes... i said it... SKINNY FIT )...and matching maroon color tie... and the only reason why i bothered to shop around for the skinny fit pants and even try it on was because i wanted to show that i do have nice shaped legs ... and it was about 70 % stretchy so it was surprisingly comfortable and didn’t make my butt look too big or my thunder thighs pound with lightning... (god only knows just how much i despise skinny fit pants on me... but i just did it anyway)

unfortunately when i got there.. it seemed every other guy there was also in the same black shirt + red tie combo abnd they even tucked in their shirts.... so i knew my chances were totally gone... even though i turned up there being all “special edition “ and all... it just wasn’t enough... and as expected... i wasn’t even nominated as one of the best dressed finalists... it went to a guy who wore a “vest” ... and another guy who wore a “blazer”... and the old guy who apparently was more “special edition” than me...

embarrassing as it may sound... i was so sure i was gonna be nominated that i even practiced my catwalk just in case... because that’s how they decide who wins... by doing a catwalk on stage and getting the loudest cheer from the crowd... and oh how i would have loved to do a real Naomi Campbell catwalk moment...

oh well.. bummer...

but then towards the last quarter of the night where we had to do our silly boring group department choir section... singing “santa clause is comming to town”... i did my hand claps and did the finger points...  but then there was a last minute impromptu moment where we called out big boss director on stage to start dancing with us ... and the song that was playing was DESPACITO..

and all of us on stage did our thing and went along dancing with it as i started to fade out into the background... until big boss director saw me  and suddenly pulled me out from the back and motioned me to dance right at the front of the stage where the spot light was on me...

i was so nervous...

but my heart wasn’t beating fast...

i was calm cool and collected...

i was blinded by the spot lights and felt this wave of magic telling me “it’s now or never”...

and i was thinking there would be nothing more embarrassing than standing out in front of the stage and just looking shy and stiff and awkward and red faced...

so i just gave in...and did my thing...



i showed everyone what i have been doing since i was a little boy for all the late nights in my room when i’m feeling happy, sad or just plain crazy... and i just bumped and grinded my J.LO ASS away to the thumping reggeaton beats of DESPACITO...a song i have been bumping and grinding to for most of the months  long even before the song became famous and got infected with the justin bieber remix to shoot it up to the number 1 song in the world...

now... i cannot put into words... just how shocked ,crazy and deafening everyone in the crowd and even the ones on stage with me were... it’s really all a blurr to me now... and i really don’t remember that much of it... but i put the moves on that stage... shaking it and even TWERKING at one point... (oh dear lord)....

so yes... everybody had their hand phones out... and now ... my” dancing moment” video has gone viral throughout our company whatsapp group chat ... with everybody shocked to see me that way... asking if i was high ? or had a little too much to drink?... all still in disbelief... with the constant comment by everyone telling me that they never knew i could dance so well...

that was just me... being me really... 

i just don’t show that side of me at the workplace...

but i do hope this moment can be forgotten as soon as possible... because i still have to go to the office and be stiff, uptight, reserved, shy and soft spoken N!loC...

hey! at least now i know how it feels like to go viral


 :-)

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