Thursday, September 8, 2016

My Tickle Toy...


**and this was supposed to be "the year to be happy" .... it started off on the right foot... but now i’ve kinda lost my way again... i’ve rejected and declined quite a number of guys for meet ups (and hook ups) for that matter... and only went on one date this year .. which was the most perfect disaster that my little fragile heart could take which made me kinda swear off dating for now... until who knows when...**

that was an excerpt from a past post "MY TRUNK BRIEFS" ... and i've kinda brushed off the notion and any possibility of another sexcapade with a guy who could have ticked off one of my very elusive bucket list of finally having my very first tickle torture session...

guys like him don't just pop up like normal grade pokemonsters or whatever those crazy kid terms they use... beautiful, ticklish guys around my age who actually plead and beg to be tickled are as elusive and rare as they get... but i am still having a hard time coming to terms with my passive decision to not even contemplate meeting up with him...

i mean.. i can use the phrase "once bitten ... twice shy..." for this moment because ... yeah... after that whole "SIN: THE UNTOLD STORY" experience... i don't ever wanna put myself through that ever again... 

but i cant help but wonder... am i losing out on an opportunity of a lifetime? ... am i letting this one chance... which could be my one and ONLY chance of fulfilling a deep dark fantasy once and for all?...

.... yeah... maybe... but you know what?.... 

i want more than just a weekend holiday sexcapade... it's just not worth it... it's like playing poker... when i think i might have gotten a royal flush (i think that's the term used.. lol).. but somehow ... the joker card always seem to pop up and screw me right into my queen of broken hearts...

i'm playing it safe... because i don't want to be sorry...

sorry for myself... if i went through with this sexcapade and came back realizing that i can actually use a new phrase..."shame on you if u fool me once... shame on me if you fool me twice"..

i don't want to be that stupid boy that gets all excited for a perfect stranger i just met online and then dreaming my life away thinking that this guy could finally be the one... only to know that i was just someone who was the extra "fun" to put into his holiday agenda...

my love life has never been kind to me... and im proud to say that i'm wise enough to know that  good things don't really happen for a boy like me...

:-/


Wednesday, August 31, 2016

Mi Hombre Latino...



i came in way early since it was my first time... sitting on the side feeling a little anxious, a little excited but most of all... awkward... 

because i am never good with new experiences.. anything that takes me out of my comfort zone... anything that is remotely social... and the only thing that was keeping my nerves calm were the amazing eye candy in the gym... and my my my... there is definitely a different herd of grade A meat over in this premium gym outlet located in this mall 

even saw not one not two but THREE pieces of white meat working out ... one even looked like a leather top right out of a Folsom porn fair...

anyways...all the stars aligned for me to finally attend this BODY JAM group class... the time was right.. the day of the week was right... the next day was a public holiday ... so just in case i wake up with a sore body the next morning... i could just sleep in...

when the instructor came in (black tank top- gorgeous eyes- shaved pits and all) ... he started out with introductions right away... and even asked my name and i told him but of course he couldn’t hear me because i spoke too soft (im that naturally soft spoken)...and if this was my first time doing a BODY JAM class... he then asked more importantly if i could dance?

i didn’t answer  him out loud...because i didn’t want to strain my soft speaking voice again so i just gave him a so-so hand gesture...  



and he reassured me that it can get a little tricky and if i get lost...just try and follow the people in front of me because they were regulars... he then quipped “well i’m gonna find out if you can dance soon enough”.... (which made me gasp under my breath)...

gosh his moves were so sexy and flirty and pulsating... at one point he even said “yeah touch your body like this!”... “i’m feeling sexy”!!! lol... oh my ... he is definitely a character..... he almost reminds me of a SIN-full sexcapade i had with guy before...

and not even half way through the class... he kept speaking out over his mic pack... saying “oh my god colin! you are killing it!!! you are doing a great job!!! and midway through a break he asked me to come up and give him a “fist bump”... (oh lord... can u imagine me giving him a freaking fist bump?? with my soft dainty hands and knuckles.... lol)



i must say.... i actually impressed myself.... i took on the choreography really quick... like "Britney spears" quick... and when we had to do this one crotch & hip grinding move... he pointed and looked at me and said “colin give me more hip!!! Now I know u can dance !!! so im not gonna take it easy on you!!!”... (i had no choice... i gave him more hip action!) hmph!

by the end of the class he congratulated all of us for a great workout... and even gave me the “taylor swift heart” to me...



(which of course made me blush)... and he still went on to announce to everybody... “my god colin!!! you are amazing!!  throughout all the first timers taking my body jam class... no body has gotten a 100%  like you!!! (which made me blush even more).... hihihi  one of the guys infront of me even said "some people are just natural born dancers"...

sigh....

i knew joining a gym would somehow be good for me... i mean... yeah one of the main reason for joining a gym was just to get to walk on the treadmill and check out guys in tanktops.. but i guess taking group classes pushes me out of my box and mundane routine of couch potato-ville...

and i guess i decided to write about this because... this little experience made me....

happy.... 

and it has been a long time since i did something out of the norm and FUN...

i even let myself fantasize about the instructor on the drive back home...  about him being oh so into me... and me obviously being infatuated by his cheeky personality and his sexy Columbian gyrations on stage... and yeah ... in my fantasy world... he is gay ... and is all that into me... why else would he praise me nonstop throughout the entire class he is just that into me!!!!... lol....(oh its all in my head)...

happy... this makes me happy...

and i can’t wait to try out another one of his classes rightly deemed LATINO JAM!!! (so i can shake my booty for him to see in all it’s glory!!!!)

** f.y.i. my left butt cheek is damn sore as i write this...

Sunday, August 28, 2016

Sunshine & Blue...



funny how things ended up this way...
you were the sunshine...and i was the blue...
life takes on a course... all by itself...
i’m happy to see you... with someone new...

i guess it wasn’t the right time...
there was never a road...
cuz if it happens it happens...
for reasons unknown...oh...

let me smile... and think about what could have, should have, would have been between,
the story passing by me... thinking life ain’t all that bad after all...
in the photographs i see a glimpse of what i’ve yearned for all my life...
but it was never the right time...
there was never a road...

funny how things ended up this way...
you were the sunshine...and i was the blue...
for the very first time... i am in peace...
happy to see you... with someone new...


~ By N!LoC ~


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